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Thursday, March 13, 2008

I was miserable. This misery during the middle of the holidays was heightened by my pre-menstrual syndrome. Twice, I fled to the toilet to cry. I hate it so much that some people are so self-centered that they choose to ignore the feelings of others. All it takes is a little bit of attention and gesture to make me feel welcomed and noticed.

But no,that little gesture and notice wasn't given. In fact, nobody even thought of it. Thus what came to me was pure humiliation, loneliness and absolute misery. When you feel left out and people treat you as if you are invinsible, how would you feel? Especially if the one leaving you out is of someone who has a higher authority than you? All through the mid-hols I wanted to scream and shout at her for causing me such pain and loneliness. It's the first time I experienced such situations and the only immature way I could handle my emotions was to hide in the toilet cubicle and cry. However, when I was done and all the tears had been shed, my eyes, nose and mouth could not hide the evidence of weeping. For they were red, blotchy and swollen.

I hate this person so much that I actually euphoric when she was the butt of other people's wrath. Evil right? In fact, I hate all those who are such useless and careless people that they don't give a single shit about others. These are the type of people who should be banished beyond the face of the earth.

Okay, I know that you guys don't understand what I'm typing, I'm sorry about that. But, have fun during your hols. =]